I Used To Be Me (part 10!)

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

I’m pleased to feature my first “Whoa, Mama!” profile that came via the trusty, ol’ Internet. Through Twitter, actually. Longer connect-the-dots story short, I met Crissy Page through the getting-it-done, multi-hat-wearing Jennifer James from Mom Blog Magazine.

Crissy, 29, is a mother, professional portrait and wedding photographer, and blogger from Ohio. She has written for an audience online since 1996, starting her first ever website at 16 (!). Her current blog, DearCrissy.com, features personal photography and “the fleeting glimpses of her daily life as a new mom—captured.”

Life before baby …
I was a woman on a mission to find the right job, to find and fall in love, and to attain a level of financial and emotional security that I perceived as “good enough.” I can honestly say that even though I was not conscious of it at the time, I had been longing for motherhood for years prior to becoming pregnant at 29.

My ideas about motherhood …
I went away to college, earned a degree, married my first real boyfriend at 22, and then  found myself devastated and divorced by age 26. I had a plan that definitely included motherhood, but that plan failed miserably.
I always thought that I would have a child by the time I was 25, though I’m not sure where that number came from. During the breakup of my first marriage, I was very fearful that I would end up alone and childless. I’m sure this is a common feeling among the recently divorced. Of course I didn’t realize it then, but my divorce was the best thing that ever happened to me. The experience actually helped me realize that becoming a mother was vital, and I knew that I would need to make that goal clear in my next serious relationship.

Then came Evan …
After giving birth, my entire perspective on life, love, relationships and mortality shifted drastically. I immediately felt as if my place within my own family tree had been activated. I could suddenly feel the power of my parents’ love for me simply by looking into the eyes of my child. I truly believe that we can not fully fathom the love that our parents feel for us until we have a child of our own. It was a very powerful awakening for me.

The most challenging part of motherhood …
The fact that I have not had one uninterrupted night of sleep in 11-months is difficult, but honestly … the hardest part of motherhood for me is trying to cope with him getting older. Of course, I want him to grow and mature and change, but seeing him stumbling so adorably out of this baby phase is heartbreaking.

Trying to find the work-life balance as a WAHM …
It was a purposeful effort on my part to design a career that would allow me to be the primary caregiver for my son. I started trying to make this a reality about a year before becoming pregnant.  I always knew that I really only wanted to have a child if I could be at home with him or her. As far as finding balance between work and motherhood, I am still wrestling with this one daily. There are entire weeks when I get very little work done.

Best piece of advice I ever heard …
It is perhaps the most over-used piece of parenting advice on the books: “Enjoy every moment.” As soon as you give birth, it feels as if your life is on fast-forward, and every beautiful smile, giggle and tantrum is fleeting.

Best baby gear…
The Miracle Blanket. Evan was colicky and had a terrible time sleeping at night, until we purchased this unique swaddling blanket. Of course, he outgrew it in a matter of weeks, but for newborn babies The Miracle Blanket is wonderful.

Worst thing that, in practice, was a big waste of time …
I was convinced that we would get a lot of use out of the Bumbo Seat when Evan turned 4-months-old. But he always looked terribly uncomfortable in it, and actually threw terrible crying fits most times I tried to put him in it.

If we could jump into a DeLorean and race back in time …
I would tell myself: Relax, you’re doing a great job! I would also remind myself to enjoy the feeling of a tiny, sweet-smelling, precious baby in my arms. Did I mention that motherhood has turned me into a total sap?

For more on the talented Crissy Page, check out her blog here and her professional photography portfolio here.

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