In Case of Emergency, Break Glass

Friday, March 18, 2011

Next week brings March 22 to my front door. A day of many markers for me.

  • It will be my ONE-YEAR blogiversary. Still don’t know how we got here, and so quickly.
  • It will be TWO MONTHS since I—as this guy at my husband’s office so “elegantly” put it—chopped all my hair off.
  • It will be the FIRST time that my husband and I leave QB in someone’s care … overnight!

Can you guess which one is kicking the Anxiety Machine into high gear?

I’ve looked at the big whiteboard calendar in our kitchen for weeks now, giving it the side-eye, frowning, and sometimes full-on making like it doesn’t exist, not real. But it does. And it’s real. I circled the date on the calendar with the black dry-erase marker and wrote (albeit in tinier than usual letters): NB + SB in CT.

Then I connected the days we’ll be away with a droopy arrow, similar to the “mouth” on the customary sad-face emoticon—> :(

Yes, it’s for effect. I need to remind myself, it seems, that we’re leaving our Star Boy at home … while we go, not to Turks & Caicos or Paris or somewhere dreamy and fabulous. Instead, we’re going to check out some Connecticut towns, and figure out which one will be our new home turf this summer.

There’s a big part of me that is itching to pull the emergency brake here. Insist that our son join us on the trip. Stomp and pout and walk around the house for the next few days with the clam-face (exactly like it sounds). Throw a mom tantrum.

Before you say anything … here’s what I do know:

  • QB will be fine. He’ll be looked after by my lovely in-laws. Two grandparents (or G-Units as his Gammy likes to say) so excited and ticked by everything that little guy does and says. A very sweet scene.
  • With my line of biz, the way our lives get busy, and the importance of reserving time to be a couple, not parents, this moment has to happen sometime.
  • I’ll be fine, too. May even find the “strength” to sleep-in past 7 a.m.

But holding all of this to be true… I’m still eyeing that emergency brake.

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We’re in the lab cooking up a few things for the blogiversary next week. If timing and luck are on our side, Ms. Mary Mack will be rolling out some new-new very soon. So stay tuned.

3 Comments
  • 1
    Francine says:

    We have yet to leave our almost 2 year old overnight with anyone so I know exactly how you feel. I still have no idea when I will be able to make that step!

    • 1.1

      It was really tough for me. I was crying and a mess– I really did know that he would be fine. But I just didn’t want to do it. I hadn’t sorted through the process of it.

      You will get there. You know that. (Feel free to come back and tell us about it!)

    • 1.2

      Yay! Glad we could help. If you find any new titles while out book shopping for your son, do tell. :-)